Are We There Yet?

Are We There Yet?
This is the sign that is over the front door of Aileen's and my house, our home, going OUT. Meaning that when someone leaves our house they are going into the ACTUAL Mental Ward.

I've always felt that way. When it is considered how much ugliness and killing and hatred there is in the world today, it actually makes perfect sense that this sign is over the door going out of the house.

Because that's where the real mental ward is.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Awareness

 

 

While my wife my darling beloved Aileen was dying.  She and I talked about this one $900 bill from MetroHealth medical Center.  We talked about how the matter needed to be investigated.  However, even though I knew that had MetroHealth medical Center given her the medical care she deserved and needed.  In September 2006 that Aileen probably would have survived for a lot longer than she did.  I could not, under any circumstances, let her believe that.  I couldn't allow her to think under any circumstances that her circumstance was as a result of a medical mistake.  Even though it was.

So we talked about that $900 bill from MetroHealth medical Center and one of the many promises I made to my darling Aileen was that I would investigate the matter fully to its conclusion.  And she asked me at one point what I would do if I found out that the September 2006 visit to the hospital actually was handled so badly that in reality if they had given her the medical care she needed that she wouldn't have survived for a lot longer.  She wanted to know what I would do if I found out that the September 2006 medical visit.  It handled differently might have given her more life.

And I told her exactly what I have always known my entire life.  It's easy for people to look at me and see me is someone who is basically either crazy or stupid.  When neither is the case.

1.  I have a legal document from the United States Supreme Court.  The document states very clearly that I, Nicole Maschke, on my own, successfully brought a legal case to the United States Supreme Court and the case was accepted.  Meaning that on my very own without the help of any attorney or anyone else.  I was able to write a legal argument in such a way so that it was written well enough, whereby the result was that the United States Supreme Court actually accepted that legal argument and was willing to allow me to present my case to the highest court in the United States.

The only reason that case did not go forward was because of a technicality.  The court and I agreed that in order to have a better chance for my argument being heard at the level of the United States Supreme Court that the argument first needed to be heard at the level of one of the Supreme Court's for the states.  Meaning that I would have to present that case to one of the different Supreme Court's in any one of the different states in the United States.  But because my case dealt with a particular aspect of the Constitution whereby jurisdictional issues or questions would come to the surface.  It was then decided that in fact the Supreme Court and other aspects of the federal government would look into the legal argument.  I had presented to see if there was a way of resolving the argument without the argument having to be argued in court.

2.  I was part owner with my father and our own company for 25 years until 1975.  I began working when I was just 13 years old.  Although I actually began working with my father as young as eight years old.

3.  I have owned four of my own companies.

4.  I have read over 500,000 books in my life.

5.  I successfully presented and argued in a lecture in 1972 in Durango, Colorado, my thesis of the multidimensionality of informational signal recognition.

So I realize that.  Because humanity has become so ego driven that it is easy for most people in the world to look at me and think of me as being either stupid or crazy.  Which is why most of the people I talk to are extremely condescending when they talk to me because most people are so intimidated by the fact that I am as intelligent as I am.  The people then go out of their way to make themselves look more intelligent because they can't stand the fact that someone like myself would actually be smarter than they are.  And of course they act that way.  Because they are so small minded and so stereotypical and so symptomatic in their logical view of the world that the only thing they can do when they are confronted with someone who is actually smarter than they are is to make fun of that person and to attack that person because the individual is so insecure within their own mind and their own intelligence that the only thing they can do is try to destroy anyone that might actually look better than they do or who is smarter than they are.

So consequently, almost all my life I have had to justify almost every single thought and decision and point of view I have ever had.  Because most of what I understand is that intelligent.  And most of what I know and what I think is that advanced.  So advanced in fact that both you will become extremely intimidated because of how intelligent my brain really is.

So all my life I have always been fully prepared for most people I would interact with or most organizations to always treat me with as much condescension and arrogance as possible.  Because that's how they have always treated me.  And only because I him as intelligent as I am.  And because my intelligence threatens other people.  Because I am.  That's smart.  And most people are that insecure.  Insecure to a point where when they do see someone who is smarter than they are the immediately do everything they possibly can to ridicule the other person and to make small of them only because to not do so would mean that the individual would have to admit that the other person is really that intelligent and they can't do that.  Because they are so ego oriented and so self-involved that they can't stand the fact that anyone actually might be smarter than they are.

And so all my life I have been basically laughed at and abused by most of my fellow humans.  Because of my intelligence.  Because people just don't think it's fair that some stupid bastard like myself but dirty ugly as you.  Because that's how most people treat me.  Could ever actually be smarter than they are.  When in reality I am.  And I always have been.

So consequently, I don't expect any of the organizations that I have reported this matter regarding my wife, to do anything about situation at all.  Because the do something about the situation would mean that they would have to admit that I'm right.  But to admit that I'm right means that they would have to admit that they are wrong and that I am actually smarter than they are and they will never do that.  No matter how many people they have to allowed to die.  The matter how many people they have to kill they will never under any circumstances allow me to appear smarter than they are because they are the ones who are doing their jobs and they are the ones who are getting lots of money for doing their jobs.  So if someone like me comes along and actually knows more than they do that would mean that they would have a harder time justifying their own intelligence in their own jobs and that they will never allow to happen.

So all the way until I die.  To the very last moment of my life.  Humanity will argue about my intelligence with most of humanity saying that I was nothing but a filthy stupid bastard dirty Jew who was nothing but a liar.  That is how the world will regard me.  I know this is surely is.  I know my own name.  Because the world can't stand the fact that I am actually as intelligent as I am in the world has so much vested interest in their own egos and all the money they are chasing that they will never under any circumstances admit that someone like myself who doesn't give a damn about money and has basically walked away from money could ever actually be smarter than they are.  Because the world doesn't want people like me to be symbols of intelligence.  The world doesn't want people like me to be symbols of education and advanced thinking.  Because the world wants only certain images to be symbols of advanced thinking and intelligent thinking.

In the United States.  Because there is such a fervor about the United States being a Christian nation.  Most of the Christians in this country will do everything they can to laugh at me and call me stupid, because they don't want anyone in this country to look up to someone like me.  Because I am unacceptable to most of the Christian community.  Just like I am unacceptable to most of the Muslim and the Jewish community and the Catholic community.  Just like I am unacceptable to most of my fellow Clevelanders just like I am unacceptable to most of the Maschke family the family that adopted me the family that thinks I am not of their bloodline.  When in reality I am.

So people will do everything they can, to discount me and make small of me.  Because not to do so would mean that they would have to admit that someone like me actually is smarter than most of the people and they will never allow that to happen.  So all my life.  And for the duration of my life.  I will be made out to be nothing but stupid bastard asinine jerk who is a liar and who has no value to this world that is how the world has treated me.  All my life and the world has no vested interest in any way in changing that attitude.

But this is where there is a another side to that argument.  I understand more of how information is processed by the brain that most human beings are capable of understanding.  In the science of information processing inside the brain every single thing we experience with any of our senses takes various amounts of time to be recognized and catalogued by our brains.

When you walk into a dark room that you have never been in before and you touch a piece of furniture that sensation of touch actually takes about 7 to 10 days before that particular sensory impression is completely catalogued by the subconscious.  There are aspects of that sensation that are catalogued much quicker.  Such as the physical sensation of touching the piece of furniture the physical sensation of touching the page furniture takes only a matter of a few minutes for the subconscious.  To receive that sensation completely and to begin its process of analyzing that sensation as to its validity.

But the cognitions the were in fact taking place at the moment that someone or one would touch that piece of furniture those cognitions can actually take between seven and 10 days for the subconscious to accurately catalogued those thoughts into the tremendous amount of information already stored in the subconscious.  And then, depending on the complexity of the cognitions that process can be extended up to as many as several months.  Meaning that when someone is in a conversation where the conversation is extremely intellectual or complex or abstract that it can take the subconscious.  Several months to accurately and adequately catalogued the information of that conversation into the subconscious where it will then begin its process of validating that information as to its truthfulness.

Then once that timeframe has completed the subconscious then begins to work on methods automatically, whereby that information will actually be used in the person's daily life.  And that secondary process can take even longer.  In some cases, depending on how abstract the information is it can actually take the subconscious six or seven months before being able to use really abstract or intellectual information in any form of conversation or any form of human behavior regarding the individual.  Because of the complexity of the information.

And because I understand the nature of how the subconscious works so well.  I know for a fact that what I'm talking about right now very well may take seven or eight months before.  Some people who are reading what I am writing right now will even begin to understand the very rudiments of what I am talking about.  Which means it might take another eight or nine months before certain individuals will even be able to talk about in any way.  In any kind of conversation anything that I am writing right now.  That's how information works as it is being processed by the brain.  And I know that's true because I've read over 50 different books from all over the world on human information processing.  In addition to the textbooks that I studied in school.  And I've been studying how the brain processes information since 1969.  Additionally, as I said above, I actually gave a lecture at Fort Lewis college in 1972, on this very subject.  And the response by three of the scientists who were at that lecture fully substantiate what I'm saying.  All three of the scientists said exactly the same thing in so many words.

They all said that my understanding of information and the human condition was so far beyond their current science that it would take them literally years to catch up to my understanding.  Those were their exact words.  And I actually have their names and what they said in my files.

So I realized that what I'm talking about here regarding what happened to my darling Aileen is a concept not only that strikes at everyone's ego but it is also a concept that strikes at one of the most fundamental beliefs that we as human beings have.  The belief that when you go to the hospital you are actually going to get medical care or the medical care that you need.  When in reality that's not true.

Because the only reason that anyone really gets any kind of medical care in the United States is simply because giving that medical care to any individual by the medical community is advantageous to the medical community in one way or another.  Either in the way of substantiating their own service or in the way of getting the medical community more money or more notoriety.  There is always a vested interest.  Because nothing in the human condition or at least virtually nothing is ever done without the thought of some kind of return on the action or some kind of compensation or some kind of benefit.

And because there is no benefit that the medical community will ever realize by accepting what I'm saying as being true.  The medical community will use all of their lawyers and they will Dr. medical records and they will do everything they possibly can to discredit what I am saying because there is no vested interest in the medical community.  Doing otherwise.

But because I do understand how information is transmitted and received I know for a fact that what I am writing here will in fact affect every single person who was made aware of what I am discussing and talking about.  And that whether anyone likes it or not.  There subconscious will take in certain parts of what I am saying or everything that I am saying and there subconscious will do exactly what the subconscious does.  Because the subconscious is not like the conscious.  The conscious mind goes through an instantaneous process every millisecond of validating every piece of information it is confronted with as to its validity.  And as to whether it is true or not.  We do this all the time.  When we look at optical illusion, our conscious mind almost instantaneously attempt to disassemble that optical illusion so that we can actually make sense out of that optical illusion so that we can then judge as to which validity.  But that's how the conscious mind works.

The subconscious mind does not work in that manner.  The subconscious mind.  Except every single piece of information it receives as 100% true.  Because the conscious mind does not initially make any determination as to the validity of any piece of information.  Meaning every piece of information or every stimuli that the subconscious receives is automatically received in a way, whereby the subconscious mind determines that the information is 100% true and accurate.  Whether it is or not.  Then over the next period of minutes or hours or days or weeks or months or even years.  The subconscious, in the background, will then go through the process of analyzing every piece of information it receives.  And it will analyze that information in order to judge whether it is true or not.  And in order to judge how relevant the information is to the other information the subconscious is already stored and catalogued.

So basically what we're talking about here is the difference between long and short term memory.  Long-term memory versus short-term memory.

So given the foregoing, I know for a fact that every single thing I am writing here regarding what happened to my darling Aileen is in one way or another going to be accepted by every single person who comes in contact with what I am talking about.  And that no matter what anyone might say or do.  And no matter how hard they might try and call me stupid and a liar.  The fact of the matter is the information I'm talking about is true based on its own merit and based on the facts and true to the extent that no matter how much someone might actually try to refute what I am saying they will not be able to do so over time.  And as a result, certain aspects of what I'm saying will become part of their own subconscious.  Informational processing.  And will become part of that process to an extent, whereby, over a period of months.  They will in fact not only extrapolate various thoughts based on what they are reading right now.  But that they will in fact expand their thinking based on what they are reading right now.  And they will use some of what they are reading right now in their daily life.  Whether they like it or not.  Because that is how information is received and analyzed and catalogued by the subconscious.

So, with all of the Bullshit that humans go through in order to try to make themselves look better than each other.  I am presenting information right now, that circumvents that entire conflict.  Because I'm talking about something as I have said many times before that when it happened to my darling Aileen the very same things that MetroHealth has done to my darling Aileen.  By ignoring her medical care in September 2006 MetroHealth medical Center and other medical facilities can do to anyone else.  And that single fact is what is going to lodge in every single mind of anyone who comes in contact with what I'm talking about whether they like it or not.  They will not be able to deny that back.  There subconscious will not be able to invalidate that fact.  Which means there subconscious will have to accept that as a fact.  Which means that over a period of time whether that period of time is days or weeks or months.  That there subconscious will use that piece of information as a fact in their daily life and in their thinking and in the expression of their lives.  Meaning that their life will change.  As a result of coming in contact with and learning about what happened to my darling Aileen.  Because the baseline truth of what I am talking about remains true.  That is MetroHealth medical Center could do this to my wife, then MetroHealth medical Center and any other medical facility to do the exact same thing to anyone else.

And we know that's true because of the medical mistakes and the statistics for medical mistakes that are listed in my see also section below.  If what I am saying were in fact not true than the statistics for medical mistakes listed in my see also section below would not be as significant as they are.  That's just logic.

So the people at the Department of aging for Cleveland Ohio and the people at the Ohio medical board and the people at MetroHealth medical Center.  All these people will, in their arrogance, leave, that I am basically stupid and crazy.  And I don't really have any brains.  Because they cannot admit to the alternative.  That I actually might be smarter than they are.  Because there's too much money invested in their own position.  They will never admit that I might actually know more about what I am talking about than they do.  Because if they do admit to that.  Then they will have to admit in their own jobs and in their own lives that they are not as smart as I am which could then cost them money and they will never make that logical or informational connection because if they do.  Like I said it will cost them more money and they will never let that happen.

Just like most of the people who read my Journal are not reading my Journal in as much as because they are interested in what I am writing as they are more interested in how much they can steal from me.  Because that's how the world operates.  If you discover something if you know something others will rush forward to steal that from you and claim it as their own.  Because the world is that small minded and the world is that ego driven.  So when people are reading what I am writing now.  They will steal this information and call it as their own.  Because they cannot ever admit to.  Nor will they ever allow some dirty Jew like myself to ever be celebrated or recognized in any way with the intelligence that someone like myself might have.  Because to do that would be unseemly.  Because I'm a dirty Jew and the United States is a Christian nation.  So no Christian is ever going to admit that I might actually know more than they do.  Because Christians believe they know everything and that they are the smartest people in the universe.  So of anyone dares to try to present themselves as knowing more the reaction by the Christian communities to kill that person or to make them look small and to ridicule them and to attack them in any way possible.  Which is exactly how I have been treated most of my life.  All on the account of how intelligent I really am.  Because people can't stand the fact that I actually am as smart as I am because they don't believe it should be so.  They don't believe I should have the right to be this intelligent so they have done everything they can to lie about me.  And to cheat me.  And to steal from me and to make small of me and to ruin my life.  Because they are so insecure in their own minds and in their own lives that they can't stand anyone being smarter than they are or knowing more than they do.  So they will steal from that person and take all of their ideas away from them and call those ideas their own will making the other person look at stupid and as ridiculous as possible.  Which is exactly how they or most people in this world have tried to treat me.

But because I do understand information the way I do.  I know that.  Whether any of these people do that or not that the end result will be that they will take the information I have presented and the subconscious will use that information.  At one point or another.  And that as a result of the information I am presenting their minds will grow.  And that this will happen.  Whether they like it or not.  And it will happen regardless of any ugly behavior.  They might demonstrate toward me or not.  And so regardless of any of the ugly behavior.  They might demonstrate or support or present.  They will be taking the information I presented they will take it in and they will analyze that information and they will use some of that information in their own lives.  And so on the account of the information itself.  I have always been prepared to fall on my sword so to speak.  I have always been willing to sacrifice my own identity and my own self worth for the sake of getting that information presented.  It doesn't matter whether anyone actually believes I have any brains are not.  God has always known my soul.  Just like God knows my mind.  So nothing that anyone from the Department of aging in Cleveland, oh I'll or MetroHealth medical Center or the Ohio medical board or WKYC TV in Cleveland or anywhere else.  Nothing that anyone can say is going to invalidate the information because the information is true on its own merit and based on the facts.  But that these organizations will do everything they can to ridicule me and reduce me to being stupid or just some dumb Jew or a filthy liar.  Because their egos won't allow them to admit even for a moment that someone like me, a dirty Jew bastard, could ever be more intelligent than they are because their egos are that small and they are that selfish and they are that self-centered and they are that hateful.  And of course if I'm wrong, then there would be no new stories every day showing exactly what I'm saying to be true.

So again, I have had to sacrifice myself like I am doing right now for the sake of the information.  And I understood all of this when I was 19 years old in 1969.  So I knew back then that I was going to be treated this way for all my life.  Just like I'm being treated now.  But as I said, the information has been presented.  Meaning that the body of knowledge that we humans have and specifically humanity who is reading what I am writing and learning of what I am talking about.  Every single human being who is being confronted with the information I am presenting will in fact find that their entire informational cortex.  Within their subconscious will in fact be changed by the information I am presenting.  And that these changes may in fact take several months.  But the changes will take place.  Because that's how information is in fact handled by the subconscious.  Facts are facts.

So it doesn't matter that most people look at me and at my life and call me stupid or nothing but a dirty bastard Jew and nothing more than saying that I am basically stupid and crazy.  And that I should not have any respect.  And that no one should ever listen to me.  It doesn't matter.  Because the information is still being transmitted.  And the information has its own validity based on fact.  And the information has its own validity based on the truthfulness of what I am talking about, which is in fact self evident.  And that means that no matter what anyone might say or do in their arrogance or in.  How condescending.  They can be to me that they will never be able to refute the validity or the truthfulness of what I am saying because the truthfulness of the validity is in fact self evident and also based on the facts.

And that means that everything I am saying will in fact have a profound effect on their subconscious information and their subconscious processing to the point where they will in fact expand their thinking and even use some of what I am saying in their daily life.  Over the next months and years.  And that this will happen whether they like it or not.  And that this will happen regardless of any of the ugly behavior.  They may show me or how condescending or rude or hateful they can be to me.  Because they will still get the information they have still learned of the information they will still use the information they will still grow as a result of the information.  And the potentiality of more lives being saved, will in fact increase regardless of anything they might say or do.  The goodbye bringing the information forward.  I am in fact increasing the potentiality of other lives being saved by merely presenting the information.

So next time anyone wants to say that I'm stupid.  My suggestion is to throw that thought away.  Because I might be a lot of things in this world then I may have been a lot of things in this world but the one thing I have never been no matter what anyone might say is stupid.

And that, ladies and gentlemen is the sum total of what significance.  There is in the crime of medical negligence that MetroHealth medical Center committed against my wife in September of 2006.  MetroHealth medical Center knows full well that they committed the crime of medical negligence.  MetroHealth medical Center will never come forward and admit to their crime because that would mean they were actually honest people and they are not.  Because most humans are not honest no matter how much we would like to think so.  Because of most humans were honest then we would not have so many news stories every single day showing very clearly how dishonest and how criminal and how hateful and racist and ugly and condescending and self involved and selfish and arrogant humanity really is.  Our news stories every single day.  Although with the world are filled with news stories supporting what I am saying.  Supporting the fact that humanity has become arrogant and selfish and self involved and mean and hateful and racist and violent.  And that humanity has achieved these ugly things to such an extent that humanity doesn't really valued very much independent discovery of any information anymore.  Because everybody thinks they know more than everyone else.  And then there's someone like me.  Someone who comes along who actually does understand one hell of a lot more than what most people ever thought possible.  Or that they ever thought of in their own lives and the knee-jerk reaction that most people in the world have used to hate someone like me.  Because they can't stand the fact that someone like me, a dirty Jew, could ever under any circumstances no more than they do.  And this of course on the account as I said above, that most people are so selfish and self involved and arrogant and hateful that they cannot stand for a single second that anyone might be smarter than they are.  Even though in reality, in this particular situation, I am.

And that, ladies and gentlemen is what I meant the other day when I said I was achieving closure.  Because closure in this particular situation means that I have conducted my investigation of the entire situation as I promised my darling Aileen.  I would do.  And that I have done this to the extent, whereby the results of my investigation have been transmitted to all the pertinent parties regarding the situation.  But in addition have also been displayed and transmitted here in my Journal work.  Every single human being in the world with access to a computer has the opportunity of learning about the information I have discovered as a result of my investigation.  And that as a result of that, that every single person who reads or learns about what I am talking about here then is subject to having their knowledge expanded and their awareness expanded and to having their entire process of subconscious analysis of information and processing of information affected as well.

These are facts, ladies and gentlemen.  Information doesn't become involved with all of our racist and ugly behavior.  Every piece of information every single stimuli that we experience every single second is excepted by the subconscious is absolutely and completely true in every way.  Because the subconscious has only one job.  And that is to determine which information is true.  And, which is false and then to relegate that information within the cortex of the subconscious with various degrees of relevance the two other information so that the information can actually be used in our daily thought processes and in our daily life.  That is the sole function of the subconscious.

And of course I'm citing such brilliant psychologists as Maslow.  Because everything I'm talking about has been discussed by Maslow and other psychologists regarding the nature of information processing, pursuant to long and short-term memory as it relates to the processing of information of the conscious mind versus how the subconscious mind processes and analyzes and catalogs information.

So again, logically speaking, I have achieved my purpose.  I have fulfilled my promise.  I have achieved my goal.  To transmit the information and to make the information available to anyone who learns about what I'm talking about.  And to do so with only one goal in mind.  Which is to affect their processing of information at the subconscious level in such a way so that they will in fact use some of what I am talking about and what I have discovered, pursuant to the situation in their own lives and thinking.  And to do so, in what ever possible positive way they are able to which will in fact be one of the primary results of learning of this information.  Because the information deals with two of the most basic concepts to every single living human being in the world.  Life and death.  These two concepts with in every single human being are some of the most basic concepts that are connected to almost every single thought and action.  And every experience we have every single second.

Because no matter what we are doing in the matter what we are watching the matter what we are seeing the concepts of life and death are part of the air read single experience we have.  Because those concepts are actually the concepts that signal the beginning of life and the and of physical life.  And so consequently, those concepts being so much a part of every single thing we do our part of every single thing we think and part of every piece of information we process.  Which means that when anyone is ever talking about life or death that the information they are presenting along with those concepts becomes tremendously deep-seated within anyone's brain based on how their subconscious processes information merely by virtue of the fact that the information is in fact associated with and linked to the concepts of life and death.  Which in fact are baseline concepts and baseline informational processing mechanisms within their own brain due to the fact that life and death is a part of every single millisecond of our existence and every single millisecond of how we process every single thing that are subconscious takes into our brains.  Whether it is a stimuli or whether it is in fact a piece of information.

And so as a result, I have achieved my goal.  I don't have to do it anymore.  It doesn't matter.  By virtue of the fact that I told my darling Aileen that I would investigate the matter to its fullest extent.  Not only have I done.  But I have presented the information to the general public and to all pertinent parties.  And the manner in which I have done so make sure, whether anyone likes it or not, that similar occurrences like what happened to my darling Aileen will have less of a chance of happening in the future.  By virtue of the fact that I have presented the information in the first place.  And that this will take place.  Regardless of what anyone might think or say or do merely on the basis that I presented the information.  And on the basis that they have in fact become aware of the information either by reading the information or learning of it.

So in that regard, whether anyone likes it or not, I win.

Oftentimes if not most of the time in our world.  We look at the winner as the person who receives the greatest degree of notoriety and the prize at the end of the race.  Seldom do we understand that someone who may not even be in the race or who finishes last may in fact be the actual winner.  And that is because our human existence is so physically oriented and based.  So much so, that our minds.  Normally don't think in abstract terms along the lines of the person who did not finish the race or who may be finished last or someone who was not even in the race all may in fact be the true winner.  Because that is the case in what I'm talking about here.

Because my point in presenting this information was never in order to vindicate my darling Aileen or to vindicate myself.  It was always being presented with the intention and the hope that as a result of presenting the information humanity in general and more specifically humanity in Cleveland, Ohio.  And it MetroHealth medical Center and at the Department of aging in Cleveland, Ohio and other organizations would in fact be presented with the information and that as a result of being presented with the information their entire thinking process would change pursuant to the information presented.  Whereby as a result, over the next period of months and years, they in fact in their own lives.  And as organizations, would in fact alter their behavior based on the information they have in fact seen and recognized and learned about and taken in to their subconscious.

Which is why I write a lot of times the way I do.  Because I do understand the process of how people think and I do know that some of the things I write may in fact take years for people to be able to understand and fully comprehend.  But simply because it may take a long time for someone to recognize or understand or even use anything I might say this not mean that I should not present or illustrate or talk about or extrapolate anything I might write.  The doing so, it actually falls on the basis of the information itself and the knowledge of how information is actually processed by the subconscious and then utilized by the human brain.

So no matter what, I still win.

Which is why I said the other day that I felt a huge burden being lifted off of me now that I finally talked about this entire matter to its conclusion.  Because now I have transmitted the full force and full weight of what I have discovered and that information is now being recognized whether anyone likes it or not by everyone who comes in contact with the information.

I've always asked a question that when someone is walking by a little boy who has his finger in a Dyke attempting to prevent a flood.  Who is the person who is stupid?  Is a little boy putting his finger in the Dyke to stop a flood person who is stupid?  Or are the people walking by that little boy calling him stupid, actually the ones who are in fact stupid themselves?  Who is a stupid person or stupid party in that matter?

So while it might be fun to ridicule me and make small of me based on the information I presented the fact still remains that the information has been presented and the information is true.  By virtue of the nature of the information itself.  It's truthfulness is in fact self-evident and based on the facts of the matter.  And those facts are irrefutable.  In 2006 in September of 2006.  More specifically, my darling wife Aileen was showing visible signs of liver malfunction or liver dysfunction.  And that MetroHealth medical Center in their expediency chose to look at my wife's condition and to simply say that she was a borderline diabetic.  When in reality the symptomatic conditions of her legs and feet were only marginally associated with any kind of symptomatic conditions regarding borderline diabetes.  Because, upon closer inspection, it becomes very clear that the nature of my wife's lower legs and her feet were a direct physical symptomatic condition of liver dysfunction or liver malfunction.

Furthermore, that says my wife communicated with her brother two years before we met in 1991 that clearly states or shows that in 1991, which was years before March 21 of 2010 when her cancer was discovered.  That in 1991 there were physical signs showing up in my wife's life that were indicative of liver malfunction or liver dysfunction.  And that the medical community of its own choice chose to do nothing about that.  And to in fact misdiagnosed her entire condition based on expediency and that as a result of the expediency MetroHealth medical Center and all the other parties involved did in fact allow my wife to die.  What if they had in fact been more accurate in their medical diagnosis and if they had not practiced medical negligence they would have accurately diagnosed the symptomatic condition of my wife's lower legs and her feet to the point where they would have then diagnosed her condition correctly and liver malfunction or liver dysfunction.  And to the point, where they would have been understood that the condition actually began decades earlier.  But that they chose to be expedient and to ignore that and as a result of their ignorance they basically deprived my wife of the medical care she needed and deserved that would have saved her life or at least extended her life.

And so MetroHealth medical Center and all the other parties involved then made the choice to be expedient because they didn't really care how long my wife lived and he didn't care about being accurate.  And he didn't care about doing an accurate medical diagnosis because they were far more interested in getting their money than they were in being correct or in actually saving someone's life.  And that this was on the account of the fact that there was no vested interest for MetroHealth to do the right thing or to provide better medical care.  Because that's the only time the medical industry does anything.  They don't give anyone medical care they don't give anyone any kind of help, unless there is a vested interest for them to do so.  Even when it is done on a charitable basis.

And so as a result, again, I win.  Because I have transmitted the information.  Over the last several days and weeks and I've done so in such a way so that no matter what excuse anyone might make no matter how arrogant they might be.  The matter how much they would want to laugh at me and call me stupid or accuse me of being nothing but a dirty stupid bastard you that they will never be able to refute the information because it deals with the very basic baseline concepts within their own reasoning in their subconscious of life and death.  And that on that account.  No matter what they do or say they will never refute what I'm saying because they know it is true, because they know that it was done to my wife that could be done to them or anyone they might now.  And because that condition is in fact connected to the concepts and the conceptualizations of life and death within their own brains.  They will never under any circumstances refute my information.  Because to do so would mean that they would have to refute an entire body of information within their own brains that are all based on those same two concepts.  Life and death.  And that they won't do.

Because people might deny other people based on their behavior or how they appear.  But nobody will refute or to deny other people's information, especially when that information is relevant to their own lives.  No matter how much they might hate that person no matter how much they might feel they are better than that person no matter how much they might think they are smarter than that person.  When confronted with information that has any connectivity your connection to the baseline concepts within their own reasoning.  They will never deny that information.  Because to do that would mean they would have to deny themselves.  And again, that they will not do.

And I know that's.  I have always known this.  Which is why I have always written in the manner I have written.  Because I know how the brain processes information.  I know how people oriented and identify and codify information within their own brains, pursuant to their own lives.  And how in fact the manner in which they can log and analyze information is always or very much of the time a great deal different than how they present themselves to the outside world and to themselves.  Because humanity plays lots of games with themselves.  And humanity might play the game of one person being better than another or one group being better than another or one religion or one political party.  It doesn't matter.  But when it comes to information.  Nobody's going to deny under any circumstances that what happened to my wife happens all too often and has happened before and will happen again.  But that based on how I have in fact presented this information.  The likelihood then becomes more significant than in reality the frequency of this happening again in the future is diminished, however small or slightly.  It is still diminished by virtue of the fact that I presented this information.

So I suppose if I wanted to I could probably take this entire matter forward to such an extent to make the information so universally public that it would literally confront almost every single person in the world.  If it were in fact to go to the point of being a legal case in court or if it were in fact being reported in the news.  But in reality that's not necessary.  Because in reality, by the fact that I'm talking about it here in my Journal every single person who becomes aware of what I am talking about in the information I am in fact transmitting in describing.  That is a result of that information being presented.  Everyone learns about that information.  Whether they are reading what I am writing or hearing about it in any way, will in fact have the manner in which they process information, pursuant to this particular type of information affected for the rest of their lives.

And so once again, I win.

And the reason I talk in terms of winning and losing is because that is almost people look at every single piece of information in their life.  Competition is a very rudimentary concepts within the human brain, regardless of culture.  So consequently, people look at information in certain ways.  Such that as a result, the concept of competition always has some degree of relevancy to almost every piece of information they take in.  Including what I'm presenting here.  And that means, like I said, that no matter what anyone might say or do, I win.  Because I have successfully described the transmitted information such a way so that no one will ever be able to deny the information itself.  But that people will in fact use the information whether they like it or not.  And one way or another.  And that was my primary goal.

Which is why again I say, that I feel tremendously unburdened as a result of finally getting this information transmitted.  Of finally being able to share and talk about what actually happened.  Now from this point on nothing matters.  Because there is nothing more the world can do to me that will cause me any kind of pain or stress.  They already allow my wife to die.  Just because they were interested more in money than they were in saving her life.  So the world goes ahead it allows your wife to die.  The one person you love more than anything else.  What more can the world do to you that might hurt you?  There is nothing they can do that can hurt you.  Because once they have taken the very thing you love more than anything else away from you.  There's nothing left for them to take.

So again, I win.

And I do.  Because now I am in the position where, no matter what anyone does to me.  No matter what any organization does to me.  No matter what any group does to me.  The matter what is done to me under any circumstances.  Nothing will ever equal the pain that I am feeling inside of every part of my being having to realize that my darling Aileen was in desperate need in September of 2006 and the best that the people of Cleveland and the people of MetroHealth medical Center could do was to turn their heads and to ignore the problem.  Hoping that she would die.  And while they in fact succeeded in ignoring the problem.  So that my darling would die faster.  What they did not succeed in doing is in destroying me.  Just like they did not succeed in destroying the information.  Because they're I am two years after her death talking about a condition that evidently what all the way back to the early 1990s.  And that no one in the medical community past or present ever had the presence of mind or the interest in any way to actually look at what was going on with my wife and that this was done basically on the grounds of expediency.  Because people are much more concerned with getting the money than they are with saving lives.  Because if they were really interested in saving lives.  They would've saved my wife's life.  Especially given the chance that they have a number of opportunities to do so and they never did.

So again, like I said, I win.

But then I knew from the very moment I died in 1968 for those 5 min. and when I came back to life but all this was going to happen this way.  In actuality in 1969, I knew about 90% of all the details of everything that had taken place in my life.  After that point in time.  In 1969.  I actually saw most of the things in my life happening before me.  Long before they ever happened.  Which is now I was able to move through this country.  And wherever I was.  I always left the place where I was living whereby within six months after I left where I was living the city I was living in ended up with rather severe economic problems.  But it was always after I left.  Because I knew that they were going to have those economic problems long before they did.  And I never warned anyone because I knew that trying to warn them would produce exactly what has happened now with my warning about what was done to my wife.  That people would rush forward with all of their arrogance and their condescension and their denial and they would do everything possible to deny anything I might say.  Because in their minds, I am nothing but a dirty Jew and a bastard.  And that means in their minds that nothing I might say might have any validity whatsoever.  And that on the account of the fact that is how I have always been treated and how I will always be treated for the duration of my life.

And I knew all of this in 1969.  Just like I know now exactly how my life will in fact conclude.  I know what will happen in my life.  I know how difficult it is for humanity regardless of what country we are talking about to pay any kind of attention to anything I might say.  Because they can't do that.  Do pay attention to anything I might say would then mean that they would be paying attention to a dirty Jew who was at bastard.  And who lives as a woman and in reality in their minds.  The only way they can make sense of something like that is to relegate me to being nothing more than stupid and crazy and a dirty liar.  Even know what I'm talking about has so much validity and so much truthfulness that they will never be able to refute the information.  So instead they will refute me.  They will belittle me.  They will make small of me.  They will laugh at me and call me stupid in order to secure their ego and their own self-importance.  Because that's how humans have in fact defined themselves.  That is exactly how we have decided to define our lives to ourselves and to each other.  On the basis of ego.  One always having to be better than the other.

But as I said, I have transmitted this information.  So I have done my job.  I have build yet another promise to my darling Aileen.  That I would investigate this matter to its conclusion.  And I would present the information to the pertinent parties which I have done.  Because no matter what anyone else might say about me like I said, they never say I'm stupid.  And no matter what else they might also say they can never deny that I always get things done.  No matter what.  I always get things done.  I never give up.  I never turn away.  I never stop.  I continue.  I keep going.  No matter what.  I keep going.  And I always get it done.

And that is why I have needed extra time.  I have needed extra time to not think about this entire matter in terms of how other people process information.  But in terms of how I in fact myself will process the information.  How I will in fact use this information.  And as I have explained I'm not angry.  There's no point in being angry.  Because being angry will not bring my darling Aileen back.  Just like taking any kind of legal action will not bring her back.  Either.  And taking any kind of legal action is actually the worst thing in the world to do.  Because when anyone sues the medical industry.  There are no winners.  Because every time the medical industry is suited everyone loses.  The medical industry loses the person doing the suing loses.  Because no amount of money and no court action will ever bring back what happened in their lives.  If they lost a loved one.  No amount of money and no court action will ever bring them back to life.  And there is no real closure written by bringing any measure to court.  Because even when the case has been settled or adjudicated the fact remains that the matter what kind of adjudication goes forward that the result is always the same that the conditions for why the court case when forward remain constant.  They don't change.  Because those conditions of happened in the past.  Which means that any adjudication.  It might actually go forward.  Any case that might in fact be brought will not change the nature of the information and it won't change the circumstance of why the case.  When forward in the first place.  Because no matter what happens the person is either still injured or the person is still dead.  Meaning that all of the lawsuits and all of the action that anyone might bring will have no affect on the state of their loved one because their loved one is still dead.

So that's not my intention.  My intention was merely to present the information.  Because that's what I do.  That was part of the agreement I made with whatever power it was that I saw during those 5 min. in 1968 when I died.  Because during those 5 min. the deal was made that I would in fact make the call.  And making the call meant nothing more and means nothing more than for me to simply warned.  Humanity.  To warn humanity about what Mandy is doing in order to give humanity auxiliary and extra information.  Whereby as a result of giving humanity that information.  Humanity would then have an opportunity to make better choices and subsequently then have an opportunity for greater degree of potentiality for their own existence as a result of the information I would in fact share.

And that's all I was supposed to do.  And that's all I have done for over the past 40 years.  I never once broke my promise to God.  Not once.  And I'm not going to start now.  So I have done what I set out to do.  And those of you who are reading the entirety of this article I now being given the information I'm transmitting in this article, which is much more profound than simply talking about how my darling Aileen was not given the medical care she needed.  Because I have talked about a number of other things in this article.  And every single piece of the information I have presented is affecting the thoughts of everyone who was learning of this information or who is reading this article.  Whether they like it or not.  Because that's how information works.  That's how the five senses interact with our brain.  That's how all of the other senses beyond the five senses interact with our entire living experience.  Because that's the nature of information.  Because information is not only three-dimensional in fact information is multidimensional and in fact information is being transmitted and received by every aspect of life throughout the entire universe.  And that this transmission and reception of information is more times than not Multi-dimensionally defined.

And that, ladies and gentlemen is truly the heart of the matter.

Just like in our world.  We celebrate people who do public acts or physical acts of kindness and charity.  We celebrate those people who win the race.  We celebrate people who do tremendous of amazing feats.  But we pay very little attention to people who work in the background with ideas and concepts.  Whereby as a result of their work with information.  Some of the most brilliant discoveries come to humankind.  I make no claim as to what will happen with the information based on what I'm presenting here other than to simply no within my heart and soul that what I am presenting will in fact give humanity a better opportunity or more opportunities to make better choices regarding the preservation and the delivery of medical care of and to human life.  Because that was my only intention.  My intention was never to do something physically magnanimous.  Never to do something that had any degree of real or significant notoriety.  Never to do anything that would in fact generate any kind of remuneration or compensation.

I knew back in 1969 that most of what I would do in my life would be done behind the scenes.  And most of the ways I would be able to give back to this world would be extremely nondescript.  And for the most part either discounted or lied about or ignored.  But that no matter what.  No one would ever be able to deny or ignore the information because it would in fact be in key role and totally and completely synchronized with the way the day in their own lives process information on the basis of certain universal concepts that all of us have in our brains every single second.  With regard to how we experience and receive and transmit any aspect of information that either comes to us or that we experience or that we in fact extrapolated to others.

So I always knew that in that, would be the greater good.  In that would be the manner in which I would be able to give back to my fellow human.  And so that's what I did.  And more times than not everything I have done has always been misunderstood.  But that has been on the account of what I have written above based on ego and denial and selfishness and self involved and.  But when you scrape all of that physical garbage that we humans create to qualify information.  When you scrape all that away what's left is the information itself because the information is based upon certain rudimentary concepts that we all have in common.  There is no way no matter how much anyone might deny me your laugh at me your ridicule me or call me stupid, they would never be able to refute or to deny the information itself.  Because it is completely and totally synchronized within themselves with regard to how they themselves process information in their own lives.

So that became, the greater good.  In my own life.  Always doing the greater good.  Always making sure that whenever I did anything regarding anything in my life whether it had any pertinence in my life are not that the greater good would always be done with the concept of putting myself last.  Because I have always lived by, and shall always maintain that only when you come last, will you ever come first.

To say that this is been an extremely emotional and rather turbulent time in my life is an understatement.  It has been actually one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with, or confront within myself.  The only thing that was more difficult was watching my darling die.  Nothing will ever equal that.  Nothing ever should.  For eight months I watched the very love of my life struggling against unbeatable odds struggling with no hope not being sure if she would wake up the next morning.  Having to live with a kind of fear of every single sound so that no matter what I heard.  I always had to be prepared, every single second that it would be the last sound my beloved darling would ever make.

Nothing will ever equal the impact that had on every aspect of my being and every single thought I would ever have.  Nothing.

So.  Because this has been so.  Extremely strenuous.  Emotionally I am still tremendously beat up.  Emotionally I am still extremely tired.  I'm almost at the point where I feel comfortable enough within myself taking a shower and putting myself back together.  But not quite yet.  Probably tomorrow morning I will feel better.  It's taken a tremendous amount of thought and the internal struggling for me to get to the point where I could write what I have written above.  There is so much emotion going on inside of me.  There are emotions that are very cultural.  Where I want to take some form of physical action to make a public declaration of what was done.  Which would be stupid.  That would be the worst thing I could ever do.  Because the point is that it was not done to adjust my darling Aileen.  But that what was done to my darling Aileen is being done every day in one way or another in so many different aspects of our lives.  And always the result is the same.  Someone becomes injured or someone dies.

And yet the emotions.  I have inside of me regarding making some kind of public declaration regarding what happened, while that is truly a cultural manifestation of my being a human being.  It is also, as I said, totally inappropriate.  Because the heart of the matter is not that it was done to my darling Aileen.  But that it is done all too often and that it was done to my darling Aileen.  It could be done to anyone else, including any of you.  And on that basis, it then becomes far more important for me not to become involved in any kind of cultural physical declaration or display of what happened to my darling Aileen.  But in fact to make the case.  Before all humanity, that what was done to her is being done all the time so many different people.  Millions and millions of men, women and children throughout this world are being subjected to the very same type of negligence and disregard.  That was shown my darling Aileen.  And on that account, it becomes much more important that I focus on what is happening to all the other lives in this world.  On the basis that they are still living in that by presenting this information.  I then have, to some degree or another, the potentiality of being able to be assistive, in one way or another, and perhaps saving a life.  Simply by sharing the information.

And that, as I said is a very exhausting emotional thing.

And in point of fact, having to talk about what I have just done in this Journal article has made me extremely tired.  It's been emotionally exhausting.  Because I'm having to confront once again that part of myself where I understand that my darling Aileen did not have to die.  That if our world and MetroHealth medical Center would have simply look at her legs.  If they would have looked at her legs and her feet they would have seen very clearly that she was not borderline diabetic.  But that she was in fact dealing with one form of liver disease or liver failure.  And if they would have simply taken the time to notice that fact.  My darling would probably, in all likelihood, be alive right now.

So once again I'm going to take the day.  To rest is much as possible.  I just need to rest a bit more to give my emotions and my heart and my brain somatic time to process all of this and so that I don't do so within the intention of any kind of public declaration but so that I continue my commitment to my darling Aileen for the greater good.  Greater good being that I use any of my talents as a writer and as an intellectual to help my fellow humans regardless of who or where they are or what they are.  So then as a result the greater good will be achieved.  We as humans will in fact realize how expedient we have become.  How selfish and self involved.  We have become.  How we are yelling and screaming about one group being better than another.  When in reality out of 7 billion lives.  We all die and we all go to the same place.

So I will write later.  Undoubtedly.  But for right now.  I definitely need to rest.  I have to make sure that my own feelings of inadequacy or failure to not become more pronounced within myself.  I have to make sure that I log into my mind that everything I have done has not only been for the greater good.  But in fact that I did do what God wanted me to and even more special, I have done with my darling Aileen wanted me to do as well.

Now it's up to you.  If you have read this far in this Journal entry then it is up to you.  What choice.  We you make in your own life regarding the information you have just read and how will you use that information?  Those are the real questions.

I'll write later.

Thank you very much for listening.

 

 

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