Are We There Yet?

Are We There Yet?
This is the sign that is over the front door of Aileen's and my house, our home, going OUT. Meaning that when someone leaves our house they are going into the ACTUAL Mental Ward.

I've always felt that way. When it is considered how much ugliness and killing and hatred there is in the world today, it actually makes perfect sense that this sign is over the door going out of the house.

Because that's where the real mental ward is.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

The Word Of God Is Love

Wednesday, October 17, 2012 11:31 AM:

Windows 7 :

…. Dragon NaturallySpeaking :

As I said, I have gone back to using the wireless headset microphone and it's actually working perfectly. But that is because of a couple of other things that have been done.

…. Prio priority saver :

As I've already explained using Prio priority saver has actually proved to be a bad idea regard to Dragon NaturallySpeaking. Because I have discovered that anything that is used in the Windows 7 environment than in any way changes the environmental variables for Dragon NaturallySpeaking actually has an adverse effect on the speech program. This does not mean that Prio priority saver is a bad program because it really is a very good program. But the fact is that it is just like advanced system care professional. And SlimCleaner, while very good programs are actually having a negative impact on Dragon NaturallySpeaking. Because Dragon NaturallySpeaking actually works best when there is nothing affecting the environmental variables of the Windows 7 environment, pursuant to how Dragon NaturallySpeaking relates to Windows 7.

…. Windows live writer :

I discovered that there was something wrong with Windows live writer. As of this morning when I was attempting to perform a repair on the program. Evidently somehow it became corrupted as a result of the different programs I was installing and uninstalling on my system. So that very well may be one of the reasons why Dragon NaturallySpeaking Crashing while using the program.

…. Firefox :

While I actually enjoy Firefox more than any other web browser. I have gone back to using Internet Explorer . And I have done so because Internet Explorer actually gives me the greatest degree of functionality with regard to Dragon NaturallySpeaking  and Windows live writer  than does Firefox or Google Chrome . And for that reason, like I said, I have returned to using Internet Explorer.

I still believe and will always maintained that Firefox really is a fantastic web browser. Because I have always believed. It was and still is. But the reality is that it is having just nothing but a lot of issues. When it comes to Dragon NaturallySpeaking  and also the operating environment in the Windows 7  system. So consequently, like I said, I have gone back to using Internet Explorer.


I realize that some of the Journal entries I'm writing right now are very difficult for people to read. But then it has to be very hard for most of the people in this world to realize that they really are failures in the eyes of God. Because that's really the truth. Regardless of how religious someone my claim to be your how spiritual they might claim to be or metaphysical. The fact is that most people in this world are total and complete and utter failures. They are failures in the eyes of God they are failures in the eyes of humanity and they are failures in the eyes of all life. And the reason for that is because people like me in this world were created by God for a specific purpose. We were created to test humanity as to whether humanity would be able to love life. I'm not meaning to love life as much as God loves life and is much as God loves humanity.

And obviously it's very clear that humanity has basically failed. Because humanity is basically a bunch of selfish racist hateful animals who will take a great deal of pleasure in killing each other and hating each other and using prejudice and bigotry and all sorts of other ugly thoughts and ugly. And this bull criteria to give each other excuses why it's okay to murder each other and to hate each other. And of course, none of that ugly horrible crap was created by God. It was all created by humanity. So no human being. This world. Regardless of who they think they are has the right to ever dare to blame God for their hatred and their ugliness because that is not of God. It is of them.

So consequently, that means that most of you humans in this world are basically a bunch of stupid ugly bastards who are nothing but failures in the eyes of God. Because people like me. Not just people who were transgendered but people who are mentally ill and disabled all over this world we were created by God to test you to test whether you had any compassion to test with you had any kind of understanding of love the way that God loves us but you don't you don't love us. That way you treated with all sorts of hatred and bigotry and racism and you treated with all sorts of ugliness and yet you claim to be religious. You claim to be working for God. Which is nothing but a filthy lie.

Because the reality is, whether any abuse stupid bastards in this world like it or not what you have done to me and others like me. God will do to and whether that happens now or whether it happens in those moments before you die or just after you step over doesn't matter. Because God will do to each and every one of you what you have done to all of us for centuries. Because God created all of us as being special in this world and God did so in order to test whether any of you would have the real compassion of God and most of you have failed miserably and how do I know that? All I have to do is look around the city of Cleveland to see how much hatred there is for me. Hatred by those who used to claim to be friends of my family hatred are people who are members of the Jewish community who hate me. Because they don't consider I'm Jewish enough for them hatred from the Catholics and Christians to school with. Hatred from almost every single person in this world. Most of you hate me. Most of you think I'm nothing but garbage my own family, hates me. And yet none of you realize that my life was really a test. It was a test of all of you to see whether or not you have the understanding of the Almighty to love me Just the Way, God loves you but most of you can't do that. Because you're so selfish and so self-serving and self old your ugly hatred. It's, you can't love someone like me. Because you're so when love with yourselves that you don't have any room to love anyone else.

So no problem. Cleveland has done a really good job. They have alienated me and made sure that I have no place to go in the city were, I'm going to be welcome as a free American citizen. I'm not going to be safe anywhere. And we but except for the gay section of Cleveland because there's so much hatred by the people of Cleveland for what I am as a transgendered female. There is nobody from any of the schools I went to has enough love for God to be able to love people like me. Because no one from any of the schools I ever went with has even come forward to say hello. Which means they don't really love God at all. Because they're more in love with themselves than they are with God.

So it's no problem. Because you humanity meaning all of you claim to be so religious. And so metaphysical and so spiritual what I bunch of liars because you're the ones that are on trial. Not me. Because when I die I will go back to God. And God never treated me as ugly as all of you have. You have treated me badly you have treated me like crap. You have made me feel like nothing but garbage. You have refused to meet you have denied to meet you have made sure I would not have the same equal rights as you. You have done everything you could to destroy me in one way or another. You have relegated me to me nothing but stupid and you get all that. Because you're more in love with yourselves and you are with God. And because you do not understand the love that God has for people like me. Because God loves everything that God creates but you as humans don't. Because you don't like anything that God creates unless it's like you and you think God is going to thank you for that? You have no idea.

My advice tall use so-called stupid bastards who claim to be so spiritual religious is for you put up and shut up and start realizing that when you meet someone like me God is testing you. And you better understand that. Because God is giving you the ability to test yourself as to whether or not you have the ability to love Me the Way, God does and you can't you can't show me or people like me the same degree of love you are demanding of God you will get none of God's love. Not one bit of that love. Because God created all of the people like me the mentally ill the disabled the challenge in so many different ways. God created all of us to teach all of you sanctimonious ugly bastard step put up and shut up and realize that if you don't start loving us as much as you want God to love you you will never have God's love. That's the reality, whether you like it or not.

Said, don't believe what I'm saying. Don't believe a single word that I'm saying to you. Because if you were to believe what I'm saying that would mean you would really want to change your ugly ways. But you're not going to because you're also stupid and so hateful that the Muslims hate the Jews in the Jews hate the Muslims and the Christians hate everyone in the Catholics hate everyone and Republicans hate everyone and tea party hates everyone and that's all you do is push your hatred and well on your hatred and push forward your ugly racism in your prejudice and bigotry. That's all you do. Because that's all you're capable of doing. You don't have the capability of even loving anything because you're also hateful and ugly and racist and yet you want God to love you in spite of your ugliness.

So go ahead continue to hate me. Please do because you're not going to affect my journey to God and I could update my journey to God in any way shape or form think that any of you can do will affect my way of getting back to God. None of you will at any affect on my journey. Not one of you. So go ahead and hate me think me as much is you want denigrate me call me nothing but a stupid bastard. I don't really care what you do because you will not stop my journey to God because none of you had that power. Not one of you. And you better know that when I get back to God. I will give God. And your full about how ugly and hateful and racist. You all have become a ghost that's exactly what you are building liars before God and racist ugly horrible hatemongers. Because that's which you do your become so selfish and self-serving that you are so in love with yourselves that you don't have the update would be to love anything that God creates unless it's exactly like you.

So go ahead and laugh at me now and call me stupid. Because the reality is I and others like me were created by the Almighty to test whether any of you had any real compassion or understanding of the love that God has for you. And when I look around the world. I see very clearly that most of you don't have that understanding at and if you think you're going to have and as a result of that kind of bastard behavior then you're really stupid because all you're going to get as a result of your ugly bastard disgusting. I just and righteous behavior is damnation. That's which are going to get you going to get damnation with you like it or not. Not because I say so but because I was created. Just like all others like me whether they are mentally ill or disabled or transgendered. It doesn't matter. All of us to our unique and peculiar were created specifically by the Almighty. The test whether any of you had real compassion whether any of you really understood how much God loves you and most of you don't understand. Because most of you find it so easy to behave so racist and prejudiced and hateful and for your hatred, you're not going to have an you're going to get damnation by God. Because that's exactly what you have earned you are given the chance to love people like me and all you did was treated like crap. And you then think you have the right to demand God love you? What right you have to demand that God give you love when you want prepared to give life. They died created love? What right do you ever have to expect any kind of love from God when all you have shown various forms of life. They died created is nothing but hatred and killing and bigotry. What right have you ever to dare expect anything from God except damnation. Because that's exactly what you're going to get you Christians think you're better than others. You don't even realize God separated everyone to the different races to test you the test whether you could love all Life the Way, God loves all life. And you are all failing Muslims hate the Jews in the Jews hate the Muslims and Catholics hate everyone. They hate everyone in the world as a Christian. You all hate everyone you don't like anyone you hate Jews. Even though the leader of your own faith was a Jew. And so you think with all your hatred that God is going to come down to Earth and say thank you no. That's not what's going to happen. God is going to throw most of you to Al and you are going to burn their for all eternity for the filthy ugly hatred. You have been supporting said, don't believe me, don't believe a word I'm saying. Because after all, what do I know? I'm just a child of God. And I don't hate any of you you're the ones who hate me. I don't hate any of you you're the ones all the excuses of why your hatred is okay. Not me. And you think you're going to stop me from getting to God that you don't know me and you don't know God at all. Because nothing on this planet. It's going to stop me from getting to God. There is no human being was strong enough to stop me from getting to God. Nobody none of you are going to affect my journey. Not one of you. Because the agreement I have for my life is not with any of you is with God. And you can understand that then you will never understand what I'm writing here and you will never understand how you have earned damnation from God. Because of your hatred. But that's which you have earned damnation. And you're doing it every day with your ugly hatred and racism. Because you don't want to stop being hateful. You don't want to stop being ugly you don't want to stop being racist and prejudiced and bigoted. You don't want to stop being white supremacists. You don't want to stop all of your hatred of everything that isn't like you and the longer you continue maintaining that hatred. The more damnation you are going to get from God.

Said, don't believe me. Please don't believe a word I'm saying. Continue believing that you have the right to hate every single form of life. God created and then expect God to love you continue being that stupid because that's what you're doing every day with all of your hatred all of your bigotry in all their prejudice and all of your ugliness. So go ahead and that's the best you can do you really do deserve to burn in hell because you are not good examples of what God created you have failed to achieve the love that God has given you. When God created you. Because God did not create she loved bigotry and racism you whether once you created those ugly concepts then try to lie about how God gave those concepts to you when those concepts do not exist in the Almighty. So you are nothing but liars you are liars to yourselves you are liars to your family. You are liars to humanity could you are liars to God. Because your hatred in your bigotry in your racism is being seen by God for exactly what it is the worst aspects of what you have the possibility of being. So don't like people like me continue to demonstrate your hatred for everything in this world that isn't like you and a lot of you do that. Like I said, the more damnation you are going to get from God. Because God didn't create just your type of person God created everything, including people like me. And if you can't love me you can't love God.

Your own Lord and Savior Jesus Christ told you he warned you at the sermon on the Mount but most of you are so stupid you don't even want to believe those words judge not lest you be judged. That which you do to the least of me will be done to you. So go ahead get your excuses ready. Because when God comes back to the world the zoning into give you one chance. And you either have to lie like hell. In order to get your way with God. And if you can convince God that all your ugly racism and bigotry was really a form of love that you can convince the Almighty of that which I don't think you will be able to in the Almighty will do to you which your ugliness has done to others whether you like it or not. So go ahead and continue hating me because for everyone like me did you have hatred for and disregard for for every single human being like me that you show hatred and prejudice and bigotry for you are in fact showing prejudice and bigotry to the Almighty with you like it or not.

Like I've always said. It's your karma…. Not mine….

The mind is like a book. Opened and much is learned. Closed and nothing is learned. (N. Maschke – 1994)

"THEY CAME FIRST for the Communists,
and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Communist.

THEN THEY CAME for the Jews,
and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Jew.

THEN THEY CAME for the trade unionists,
and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a trade unionist.

THEN THEY CAME for the Catholics,
and I didn't speak up because I was a Protestant.

and by that time no one was left to speak up."

Pastor Martin Niemöller

      Child Poverty Statistics:

    • 25,000 children die each day from poverty
    • 1041 children die every hour due to poverty
    • 17 children die every minute from poverty
    • 750,000 children die every month from poverty
    • 9,000,000 children die every year from poverty

    Child mortality Statistics:

    • 9.2 million children die every year
    • 780,000 children die every month
    • 26,000 children die every day
    • 18 children die every minute

    An estimated 9.2 million children under the age of five will die this year – nearly 26,000 per day or 18 every minute. This is greater than the annual number of deaths from 1. AIDS (2 million), malaria (900,000), and tuberculosis (1.5 million) combined. 2. Neonatal disorders, pneumonia and diarrhea are the major causes of under-five mortality.

    Globally, 80 percent of all child deaths are due to only a handful of causes: neonatal causes, pneumonia, diarrhea, and malaria. 3. Pneumonia or sepsis, pre-term delivery, and asphyxia at birth are the leading causes of neonatal deaths. Malnutrition is responsible for over a third of child deaths.


    And, according to recent United States statistics, there are approximately 43,000 suicides that take place, in the United States every single year. That would be one suicide taking place, by children as young as 12, or possibly younger, up to our oldest citizens. Approximately every 15 minutes.

    Not one single penny that the pro-life movement spends on their so-called pro-life movement goes toward saving any of these “living” children’s lives. Not one single cent. Which means that not one single cent of the so-called pro-life movement is being used to save any of the amazing children and absolutely fantastic women, and men, who are being killed, or suffering horribly, every single minute. so naturally, it becomes impossible to conclude that the pro-life movement is pro-life at all, if they will not even save the lives of living children and men and women. But will always only be concerned with, and define life as the “fetus” only. And THAT’S NOT how their own God Jesus Christ defines life, in their own Bible.

    Which means that the pro-life movement is not pro-life at all. Because their money is “not” going to save any living life on this planet. Their money is only going toward forcing women to bear children against their will. And that’s not how their own God, Jesus Christ defines pro-life.

If The Almighty will not allow the smallest sparrow to fall from the sky, why, should we, the creations of that same Almighty, do any less?


    With 78% of the population of the United States being Christian, (US Religious Demographic Statistics ) that also means that 78% of all the:

    incidents that take place every year, are committed by approximately 78% of the population, meaning people who claim to be Christians. (US Religious Demographic Statistics ). And that is something that the Christian conservatives , and those who are Catholics, never seem to want to discuss, and in many, if not , cases, will lie about. Unless they are forced to do so, and/or tell the truth, in a court of law.

    And again, their own God, Jesus Christ says in their own Bible, not to judge anyone, and not to hurt anything that God makes. That’s anything. So, these statistics are really meant to illustrate about being responsible for one’s own choices and actions. That would be, in their own Bible, free-will choices and free-will actions.


    My Statement On Religion

    For the record, I do not now, nor have I ever hated any human being on earth. I do not hate, regarding my spirituality, and spiritual beliefs, anything that God did make. Meaning that I do not hate the “humanity” that exists within any human being. However, God did not make the personal choices that humans make, regarding how they behave, and/or present themselves, to the world. So if a human being chooses, of their own free will to demonstrate their behavior with racism, bigotry, prejudice, and hatred for other humans, on the basis of their own free will choice as to how they define their spirituality within themselves, that is their own choice. So I do not hate any human being for being that which God did make. I hate only the choices and the manner in which humans have decided to demonstrate their behavior to one another. I do not hate religion. However, I will never give my support to “any” religion, that has ever caused harm to, or killed, a single human being, in any way, as a result of the religion demonstrating, or manifesting it’s presence in the world. If any religion has ever harmed or killed a single human being, I respect the right of all humans to believe what they want in life. I, personally, will under no circumstances give my support for any religion, or theological belief, that has ever harmed or killed even a single human being. This is what I have dedicated my life to as a spiritualist and a pacifist here on earth. So any attempt by anyone to portray me as hating anyone is a lie. Because that is not so. The foregoing clearly shows that I have no hatred for humankind or for any religion.



    My Pro-Life Statement

    For the record, I am pro-life . I do not support violence against, or the killing of any human being under any circumstances! And the only way that I ever deviate from that stand is that I do not believe that God has ever given any human the right to dictate to any woman how she is to arbitrate her life with the Almighty, and/or God . Therefore, I believe that all women deserve the right to choose for themselves the fate of their own bodies, pursuant to their relationship with the Almighty, and/or God . My position regarding this statement is more fully explained in my article entitled: Second Gear.


    The mind is like a book. Opened and much is learned. Closed and nothing is learned. (N. Maschke – 1994)

Personal Further Reading:

My Significant Journal Entries:

  1. My Biographical Profile
  2. My Complete Medical Record Of My Caregiving For Aileen
  3. Finding Neverland
  4. How Do I love thee. The First Anniversary Of Aileen's Rosebush
  5. My Philosophy of Life
  6. Second Gear, My discussion of my Pro-Life, and Pro-Choice Position
  7. The Time I was hired to photograph and met President-elect Ronald Reagan
  8. My 250 Million Variable Characteristic Hieroglyphic Language
  9. My Global Warming Research
  10. Quantum Mechanics And Newtonian Metaphysics, Originally Dictated On Friday March 19, 2010 (two days before Aileen collapsed and was told she only had 2 months left to live
  11. Pressurized Moments
  12. Religion 101
  13. I Am An Iconoclastic Human Rights Advocate
  14. The Dark Lord
  15. Sand On The Floor
  16. A Human Comedy
  17. The Tortoise And The Hare
  18. Fear: One of Life's Great Motivators
  19. Give Me That Old Time Religion
  20. The Real Explanation of What’s Going On With Japan
  21. The Shadow People
  22. The Music Of The Spheres
  23. The Maschke Dynamic
  24. At Last
  25. Midnight Madness
  26. A Speck Of Dust On A Dirty Beach
  27. Choices of The Heart
  28. Oh There You Are
  29. Finding The Path
  30. Death Be Not Proud
  31. John Denver-The Box
  32. Relevancy
  33. The Environment Of My Mind
  34. The Dented Soul
  35. Talking To The Ghosts In My Heart
  36. A Rumpled And Misunderstood Life
  37. The Metaphysics of Hatred
  38. System Update: The Metaphysics Of Computing
  39. The Letter
  40. Human Rights
  41. Human Rights-An Analysis Part I
  42. Human Rights-An Analysis Part II
  43. Appearances Are Deceiving
  44. Unfinished Business
  45. The Velvet Hammer
  46. Reality Always Wins
  47. Midnight With The Iron Maiden
  48. The Difference Between Love And Hate
  49. System Update: Comprehensive
  50. Rummaging Through An Old Drawer
  51. Tidying Up
  52. Climbing The Mountain
  53. Clear Vision
  54. Dancing In The Backyard With My Weed Wacker
  55. Exercises In Multi-Directional Thinking
  56. Having Dinner At The Gates Of Hell
  57. Assured Distance
  58. The Dignity Of The Human Soul
  59. The Remarkable Thing
  60. Two … Three … One …
  61. Following The Footprints In The Sand
  62. Second Sight
  63. In The Midst Of Darkness A Single Spark Of Light Guides My Way
  64. Battling Demons In The Darkness

The mind is like a book. Opened and much is learned. Closed and nothing is learned. (N. Maschke – 1994)